I'm down

So I've been feeling low these days. Not my extreme yet but feeling low is just not one of the sweetest feelings to embrace.

I am confused. They say 20s is when you feel all confused and lost but i guess in my case at all ages I'll still be feeling confused and lost.

I gained 2kgs when I'm suppose to lose another 10kgs during this holidays. My weight gain has added to my depression.

I am officially a graduate but trust me, stepping into this new phase (oh well, its not new for as I was employed before this) is ain't easy. Getting a dream job is too much of a profound.

Moving back to a big city requires a whole new mental set up too. Now I can no longer go back to my 'own home' in Sunway as a student. Now I have to go back to KL city as an adult, something that I'm still striving my best to accept actually. I don't think so I'm ready to adult but damn, reality is hitting so darn hard.

That's enough ranting for the day, I guess. and oh yeah, I'm also having fever now. Too confused until my body temperature rose?

Adios!

Book Review: A Personal Matter by Kenzaburo Oe

This time I've picked this book, A Personal Matter by Kenzaburo Oe which is my first book by a Japanese author. This book was indirectly recommended by one of my friends and thank goodness I was found this in my university library.

The story is about Bird, a frustrated intellectual in a failing marriage whose utopian dream is shattered when his wife gives birth to a brain-damaged child.

The story is semi-autobiographical and it revolves around the life of Bird, a confused young man trying to figure out what he could do to his brain-hernia child when the doctors had labelled him a 'vegetable baby', to Himiko and his wife.

©Seetha Ravindran

I would recommend this book for its depth, open-minded and unconstrained imagination.

My rating : ☆☆☆☆

Till we meet then!